Here's to another try....

Well it seems that I managed to stop blogging last year, and didn't even attempt to keep up with things as life took hold and threw me another curve ball. Basically I am going to try starting this thing over again. If you've read in the past you know I cover all types of subjects and comments are welcome.

I have to wonder if anyone out there has ever for no reason what-so-ever just felt completely useless. I don't mean like " hey I'm down in the dumps" type of thing. I mean just outright "what the hell am I doing, I can't seem to get anything right no matter how hard I try" that feeling.

Ahh but now I'm getting ahead of myself. Let's recap the past few months. My son was diagnosed with D.I.P.G. ( Diffused Intrensic Pontine Glioma ). Roughly put my 7 year old has brain cancer, but not just any brain cancer. This one is rare and inoperable. He was accepted into a clinical trial study at St. Jude. During the time we were there in Memphis all though the situation was bad, I still felt like I was at home and where I belonged. As soon as we crossed the state line coming home... Well I started to feel like I was out of place. Like I was returning to a place that I just don't fit in and probably never will. I sit here at home trying to determine what I'm going to do about supporting my family. I really want to finish my CDL training at get my Class A License, but I have two problems there. One I can't afford the school right now and two I really can't see myself spending that much time away from home while my son is going through everything that he is. So back to my original question. Have you ever just felt completely useless and out of place?